If ever I need a self-esteem boost, I just log on to Yahoo! Messenger under my alter ego name. I won't say what it is, but I list my occupation as the Queen Goddess of the Boobie Republic. Needless to say, I get quite a bit of male attention. The thing that really makes it fun is that most of the fellas are BBW lovers. For those of you not in the know, it means big beautiful woman lover... ie: they dig the fat girls. These guys are the best for boosting a lagging self image. They actually love the flab and big butt I get so down about. The things that make me feel like crap, unattractive and unsexy, are the things they are looking for. These are the things that turn them on and they aren't shy about saying it. I will never understand this attraction. I don't understand my own husband, who prefers plus size gals to skinny ones. I don't find it attractive at all, but thank God he does. And thanks to all the fellas out there who feel the same way and always manage to make me smile at their drooly, tongue out worship of my plush figure. You really make my day.